Till' death.

Back at it again. . .
So after my week vacation I'm back at work. Back in action I guess you could say. Things haven't been the same because of our recent lost. A sad but true story has brought realization to my life. My eyes are more open to different decision making and views in life. I drag my life on by pity and remorse of past events in my life. If i was given my second chance why not take full advantage. Why don't many of us take the full advantage? This past Friday was viva glam Friday just like it is ever week. This week was different we are trying to promote the colors and the cause much more now. So I got dressed in drag and impersonated Lisa Marie Prestly, who is one of the many spokes person for the color. Bri did a great job [ My drag alter ego; www.myspace.com/itsjustaria ]. Me and two other fellow employees paraded around the three counter's in Macy's Herald Square promoting happiness, awareness and most importantly LIFE. That night I went out to have drinks w| a long lost friend and ended up getting wasted. Later i met my boyfriend at his job just to only make a full of myself. Drunk and not in the right of state of mind i looked for coke and for a fight w| someone i love. Thank my angel up above i didn't find the drug and later the fight faded. The day after I come to realize that my life needs to be changed my decisions have to be different if not i will only live the life of those i speak of. From here on out i will try to be more open minded and vocal, less pessimistic and vulgar.




In another note. . .
Today is Stephanies wake. God i wish i had such strength to show my face. As my eyes glaze over and send prayers out to her family and her, I make a decision that i can not show. Only she and God will know why. Other may not understand but to each is on.

Future Outcomes!

Since a few people have hit me up saying they been interested on hearing more, here I am. I know my last update was months ago but I will be trying on keeping this current. Since the last update things have changed so much in my life. It has been such a change that even my morals may have been affected. I don't clearly know if it was for the good or worse but they have shifted. I do have tons to write about but not thinking is the best to blurb it all out ill keep you guys asking for more. Well since December I have gotten a secound job, found a boyfriend, and created a full blown alter ego. I also have received lots of news the has impacted my life. It changed my way as I know it and nothing will ever be the same.

Shadyness, expensive food, tanning, iPhone, drag clothes, make up, hair cuts these are somethings that have such importance in my life that just shouldn't be as important. In the past week I lost a co-worker. She passed away while on a trip to the Dominican Republic. Only 20 years Stephanie C. passed away. She was full of life a loyal employee and a some one cool to chill with. I didn't much of her nor did I try to get to know her. This showed me that you need to cherish life and try to cultivate friendship sooner then later. This girl had so much going for and it was just taken away. We as humans get so many second third forth chances and do nothing w| it. Making promises and trying to make changes that never take affect. Letting the little things in life to affect you so hard and miss out on such good chances. Why do we do this? Letting yourself become homeless, bankrupt or worse die. Life is all about choices that change the outcome of your life. Me and my boyfriend were walking to go to work at the night club. While walking their a child across the street was playing baseball w| an older man. The ball went to the street and soon after he ran for it totally ignoring his surroundings and forgetting about the car's. Not knowing it could have been the last time he would have been having fun. James Anthony [ The Boyfriend ] later tells me a story about a little girl about 4 years old was playing w| the fire hydrant in the city and the force pulled her out to the middle of the street. Soon after a garbage truck ran her over. This happen when he was about 8 years old, she was so young and passed away so early because a careless mistake. And events likes this always happen around the world decisions that humans make later affect their outcome of life. Going to bed w| the wrong person. Making the wrong business decision or even going down the wrong street.


R.I.P STEPHANY C.

Fashion Or What they say is "FASHION";

. . .So I was laying out my outfit to go pick up my boy it inspired me to take a picture. Looking at the picture and putting the article of clothing's on many thoughts ran through my head. What would people assume of me? Meaning will someone think I'm ghetto hence not having a job and being a nobody. Will some think of me as some one being fashion savvy? Basically saying I know what's in and how to pair up clothing. In other words saying that I most likely have a good job and nice place. Then I think to myself if anyone worries about these things when they get dressed.

. . .Don't get me wrong I really don't try to drive myself crazy on a topic like this. I feel like why worry on what others will think about me because most the time I won't ever see them again. But hey doesn't everyone want some social acceptance at the end of the day? or am I wrong?

. . .Then I pull back when I'm looking in the mirror and think, is this fashion? what is fashion? who say's what's wrong or right in fashion?

. . .In the fashion world i feel like its one big controdiction after another. Maybe because it's all of it is based on a personal opinion. You can step into a train cart and their could be four different genre of people w| complete total different up bringing's. Each person will judge the way you look in a different way. And the way you look in the end is your fashion and were you stand in the social ladder. Many say it isn't true but I feel like it is. We are pre-judged by just the way we look. We usually assume how someone is going to talk act and were they come from just by their fashion. Or no?



Question for you is; What is your fashion? What does your clothes mean to you?

Gay Club's & More;

...So working a retail job gets annoying after a while. Because my career is to become a highly noted make up artist I work at M.A.C. Cosmetic's. It is not the best job for a MUA [ Make up Artist ] but it pays the bills. I get to enjoy myself and do what I love. In the end I'm still doing retail. So whatever I work retail so I got out of work at 12am today.

...After the club three of my top favorite co-workers came w| me. It was good we danced and had a real good time at the club. I met this dude their, real chill and his swagga was cool also. Then I fucked it all up. Let's get back to the club. I never understood why most gay clubs run the same atmosphere. I been to a couple of straight venues and they never really the same. Maybe the same people but at least the music was pumping in a different way. This is why at times I rather hit up a straight place.

...So after all that club talk I need to hit up on gay/bisexual men. Yes we know we love our straight men but, why the hell are the cuntiest dude giving an act? Never really got this whole mentality that they have. I look around and everyone bobbing their head to Notorious B.I.G. then vouging to beyonce. I know some really enjoy their rap but others just look dumb. Me as a person I just go the way I feel will give me the best ending. Meaning I'm just going to do and do what I feel will make me the happiest let stop and just be our self.

...That's just my thoughts for now see you guys when more events come along.

Introduction;

. . .This will be the begging of a very bright future I think. This blog is just to put out my thoughts and view, about many views in the world. My thoughts on this industry that many would like to be apart of and are a part of. Views on current and past events in the world. A place just to put what my real feelings are. No lies just the brutal honest truth, so please don't ever take offense from it. Just like you have your feelings about something I do also

. . .A little about me, Miguel D. Pineda 21 born and raised in Long Island, NY [ Freeport ] but now living in Brooklyn. I do have my own studio apartment with a good paying job. Being a make up artist does have it's perks I would say. I have many aspirations in live the main one being well payed and known in a non notorious way. Very hard to do when you a young gay man in the "BIG" city. I come from a some what broken home parents had their fun and went their way, then I came. My father is very accomplished man still living in Dominican Republic but way richer then many that live here. My mother in the other hand got the shorter stick and had to raise me and push back on her dreams. Growing up in a middle class minority family in a small town isn't that easy

. . .You guys well get more of a taste about my life as I start posting more blogs. The perpose of this blog is for mainly to get my name out their. I will be posting at least weekly blogs, bi-weekly make over's, and monthly video blogs. Soon to launch also my tee shirt and jean line on here. At this point I will not release the name nor the ideas for the line [ shady people out their and exposing such money maker can hurt me in the end ]

. . .So like I said "MY THOUGHT'S" so a disclaimer has to be put out. If you feel my views are either wrong racial or just plain dumb I really don't care to be quite honest. Its not me being full of myself but their is no need to please everyone out their. So expect the worst of the best.