Till' death.

Back at it again. . .
So after my week vacation I'm back at work. Back in action I guess you could say. Things haven't been the same because of our recent lost. A sad but true story has brought realization to my life. My eyes are more open to different decision making and views in life. I drag my life on by pity and remorse of past events in my life. If i was given my second chance why not take full advantage. Why don't many of us take the full advantage? This past Friday was viva glam Friday just like it is ever week. This week was different we are trying to promote the colors and the cause much more now. So I got dressed in drag and impersonated Lisa Marie Prestly, who is one of the many spokes person for the color. Bri did a great job [ My drag alter ego; www.myspace.com/itsjustaria ]. Me and two other fellow employees paraded around the three counter's in Macy's Herald Square promoting happiness, awareness and most importantly LIFE. That night I went out to have drinks w| a long lost friend and ended up getting wasted. Later i met my boyfriend at his job just to only make a full of myself. Drunk and not in the right of state of mind i looked for coke and for a fight w| someone i love. Thank my angel up above i didn't find the drug and later the fight faded. The day after I come to realize that my life needs to be changed my decisions have to be different if not i will only live the life of those i speak of. From here on out i will try to be more open minded and vocal, less pessimistic and vulgar.




In another note. . .
Today is Stephanies wake. God i wish i had such strength to show my face. As my eyes glaze over and send prayers out to her family and her, I make a decision that i can not show. Only she and God will know why. Other may not understand but to each is on.