A vampire's life is a drag.

So earlier this week I went to the movies w| my baboon [ J.Anthony ] and saw Daybreakers. Pretty good movie I didn't enjoy how they made the volume so loud. To me it seemed that they were trying so hard to scare you like they didn't have enough of the trill factor to do it on its own. Then the story line was really good but the execution part of it was very BLEH. They seemed to be missing a lot of scenes and added just extra unnecessary scenes. Also the editing part of the movie was very amateur. Overall I would advise you guys to wait for the the DVD if you like vamp movies. I am a big fan of the vamp situation and I am loving the whole twists that people are bringing into these recent movies. Hopefully they don't go to over board w| it.

Currently I am in the middle of writing my very own vamp novel. To me I'm so intrigued by the way they live and run there life. I guess because being a gay man and not being excepted by society I can some what relate to them. They never really are excepted in the end and when outsiders come in to the scene its just for a tease.

In other news Drag Race starts very very soon. -dances. . .I can't wait of course me being a drag [ BriAmore ] and all I live for all these kind of shows. One of our Quote on Quote New York Drags are on their [ Sahara D. ] hey i feel personally that her girlfriend [ Manila ] would have been a way better candidate but whatever. I have noticed that everything is about money ratings and sex, especially when it means gay men SEX is a big part of production. But let's see who wins this season hopefully the right candidate because last season Nina Flowers was robbed from her title. Hey Rupaul is black she needs her girls to be top #1. -covers mouth like Mary J Blidge on American Idol. . ."Did I say that out loud".

Dear mom,

I love you w| all my heart, but I can't become you. I have to watch you now to know what not to do. Its been so long since I seen you and the last time I saw you my mind was in a different mentality. Now i see what wrongs you have thought me, my jealousy, bad judgment, and bitterness. You have been a great mom to over come all that you have but I just can't become you. I don't seem to understand why you do the things you do at time because they are the same things I do. Is it because your mom did to you also? I find myself in the same situations and mad about all the same things you get mad about. It frustrates me now to think that it was because of you that i missed or messed up so many good relationship like you have done. . .

It is true what they say about the apple never falls from the tree.

Sary Gays ::back click:: Spell Check

So it is something that i have dealt w| since a child. I don't know if it was the lack of parental guidance or just my laziness now when I'm a young adult. Since i been a little boy i always had trouble w| spelling and grammar its the weirdest thing because all my English teachers said it i can write a great story but when it came to the spelling i sucked. Its all also a big excuse in my part because I could take the chance out and check my spelling I just don't see the need to especially when it comes to MY thoughts. It hasn't ever frustrated or embarrassed me this issue I guess its because i know many others out their have the same issue.

Its pretty funny also because I just noticed its the A's and E's I'm messing up. Does that mean something? Like psychological or something LOL. "Because everyone made fun of my big apple when young now I resent the letters A & E". OH! A&E maybe its the crappy clothing from American Eagle that I just don't like hahaha I don't know. All i can say is i apologize in advance everyone bare w| me. And I don't mind the criticism I actually encourage it I like the help. . .


Sorry Guys I'll back click more often and watch out for the words.

Internet job hunt

So i been unemployed and collecting for a while now amd i been searching for a job. My boyfriend has found a couple good sites and one of them had a little contest going on. It was calle the worst first day. I entered the contest and wrote a mini paragraph about my worst first day.

" Well my worst first day was actually my fault and it was at Bare Esentials. It was a position for a make up artist i needed a job so i took it and just lied on the application and said ive done make up in weedings. I was only 17 i did not know better. It came down to do the make up i started off with a foundation color to light on the lady. Then i went on to apply a bright blue on the lid w heavy fucia pink cheeks. She then asked for a nice highlighter color. So i went behind the counter and got her a real highlighter. My trainer busted out laughing and diffused the situation befor the client could look. Now i got my experience and became a professional make up artist. "

its so funny i havent thought about that in a while because it wasso log ago. And its crazy to think that, that is how my love for make up started. I just wanted to share that ;]

What does love got to with it?

Tina has sang this line so many times an until a year ago i never knew what she ment. About One week & One year ago i finally met in person my special someone. He has truely and i can say truely become my true love. That if so i was to mark my body w his name i would never regret it because his my true love. When i met him i didnt think it could have become that. Not only was i looking for a one night stand and not ready for a relationship. But we come from two different parts of the world our friends and family our morals and just everything. I fell in love not in the typical pupoy childish way but a more Eve - Love is blind |  kind of way. He has a become a part of my life and i know he always will no matter what happens w us atleast on my part his my soul mate. We finish each others thoughts not sentences thoughts. 

While i was falling in love well we were falling in love we created a very un healthy enviroment. We did not hit w our fist but we did w our words. We also shut out the world. Something i think its very common and easy to happen in a young and new relationship. It got to a point where i stopped seeing my close friends and then even my family. I lost my job and then my apartment and almost everything i worked so hard for. Just because of jelousy and insecurities and also comfort. It got really easy and comfterble in that room. No change no outside world somewhat kind sick safe. Not thing will ever happen to me because nothing ever does happen. I needed to get out if not for me then for us. If i hadnt get out and made a dicision to change my life i think words would have turn to fist. This is so hard to be away from him but i think it will be showing how much we do love each other and also how much we need to change, if not him then atleast thats a "I" for me. I dont know what the future maybe bring for us nor do i care to know because i know either way he will b in my life and scouts honor he will be my last boyfriend if we stay together or not. Thats a whole nother blog stay tuned ;]

"Lets take a jorney into uptowns elite"

So the pas couple of days have been a roller coaster ride I left my boyfreinds house and Im staying w my perants out in long island. That will be a whole nother blog. Well on the night i left of course i hang w my gay mother Raulita [ Raul Lopez: hood by air ] & titi Nina. Me and my mother have a very fucked up relationship from the outside you would think its very verbal, to say the least. Now as you know in previous blogs i have spoken about gay or drag families. Well i will touch lightly on this subject again. 

Growing up most my life an only child in the subburbs of long island i say i grew a big imagination. This has carried into my Young-Adult life. I think it is a big part to my creative processe when i do make up and also drag. Well i always fantasied to not only have a close gay family but as corny as it sounds "cool" one. Now the group that i consider my gay family doesnt run around calling each other cousin sister brother maybe ones or twice son mother father. But i just never really looked and seen that i had all this time what i wanted and its really a beautiful thing to know especially now in this hard time. 

Well on my first night as a qoute on qoute "FREED" man we went to mamajuana cafe. I have been their a couple of times before in the past. Really nice spot in high and mighty uptown scene [ Latin ] they hooka serve slammin sangria and over priced food. AKA it could seem kinda booji. Not because of the caliber it holds but a lot of pretentious people go their. Well this night Anais Martinez performed ima put some vids up later in th week. Wow the first time i herd her sing live was in my friends living room shes really close friends w my group. Well she sang live on a mic she did Rihannas Russian Roulette and put the poor barbados bitch to shame. Because come on we all know Rihanna is a robot she dont sound good live. I still live for you miss thing keep doing your thing. Anyways Anais went on to do some old school spanish ballads and some vouging competion. Lol pretty crazy thing all the mean while my friends popped henny bottles and minguled w| uptowns elite. To say that i had an amazing time would be a lie. I was heart broken and this is also just a regular tuesday night. Its our or thiers family game night. Hahahah but lets watch out for more on this people. 

Oh and soon ones things get more situated in my life i will be posting ones a week, YouTube videos thats i randomly record about the most random things in life. 

Shop w| "People Like Me"

-stumbles over my profiles music and takes eye boogers out.


Mornin' people. So I woke up this morning to my dumb iPhone telling me to check my FB inbox aahhhh. And I seen that i had a new message from an old high school class mate Gandhi R. he was pitching his new clothing like "People like me!" so of course because it involved clothes i had to check it out. Now go on and you do the same [ http://www.peoplelikemestore.com/ ] i bet you would likes.


I fell for it, i love the website's visual concept of this new up and coming clothing line [ P.S. So did my sister BriAmore<3 ] "Keep you hands to yourself" in a womans Large she would love yah for ever ::hint hint::. But yes I did really enjoy the new twist to the typical Tee that everyone usually sells. I have to say i hope they have a patent for this new line because they don't need some over marked company coming in and stealing their nitch. I will be purchasing for myself the "mama's boy" TEE just because i love my mama & love to show support ;]

A Philadelphia Trip.

One of my three kids is performing tonight at a club in Philly called Sin City!

Well I was on my way but i did went and came back LOL. I didn't have anytime to finish my post yesterday so I guess today is better then never, right?! It went well we had a good time it was just four of us. Nashalee, Yoly, J.Anthony and me hahaha and we also got lost thanks to good old mapquest.com directions. Thank God my iPhone has GPS if not we would probably be in Delaware right now in the middle of a "U-TURN" situation. So yeah my baby girl performed and she4 did a great job. I am really proud to know that she has improved so much and is figuring out her nitch as a drag performer.

In the gay scene we tend to have gay family its at times a substitute for people that aren't really accepted with in their own biological family or just close friends that consider their friends either father or sister figures. Its more common in the drag community because it use ally means that those are the people that you go for help either w| make up a ride dresses our just emotional support.

I think now in days the whole point of a gay [ DRAG ] family has become shyt to be quite honest. If you see some of the families that are out their now its almost a joke teaching that stealing protestation and even bullying is a way to run your life. Not only also to lie about who you are really, they forget that Drag is the impersonation of a women, it does not mean to lie about your life. I guess this is a trait that very common with a lot of human gay or not. Everyone wants to be wanted and maybe even admired to some extent. Its just sad that the younger generation comes to the older to be taught just negative things or vice versa because i have seen that also. I can't say that my family [ The Daniels ] are angels but i try to teach my kids or "relatives" to be the best they can be with out putting someone down. Hey i know their some people that just deserve to be put down [ ::cough:: Natalie C. ::cough:: ] sorry i don't like fake people. But I feel that the constant shade just brings a bad name to out people.

It is the thing i hear the most from the straight community that gay men especially drag queens are very catty.

It's been a while. . .

Hey guys,
when I first started this blog it was suppose be so much and just like so many things in my life I didn't take it no where. Kinda sucks because even though I haven't done much with my life since I have had a lot of emotions pass through me. Things are well a lot different with myself since i first started this. I since have moved into my boyfriends house and am living with his family i got myself fired from my last job and haven't really spent anytime with my family and friends. "AKA" I let myself go, but hey i have lost weight lol. Oh and also I have started to do drag more heavily since also. Check it out [ myspace.com/briamore ] she also has her own twitter [ twitter.com/briamore ]. It is kinda crazy when you think about it how i speak of her in third person because she is me. I don't know I do it at times to kinda make sure I play the role well and also protect myself. Its almost the only time I can escape from this world i have created other then music or books. I guess its also pretty cool because when I do get to escape I'm surrounded by people and I'm not in my own little world with no one to appreciate it with. Its not like I cant share the escape of the books and music its just I don't allow myself to its the only time I could really be me or whatever me I want to be. I have to say since stepping into this whole new scene I don't really think of becoming a girl its fun and all to dress up but 24/7 nah uh the criticism and also the uncomfortableness I'm good. Well I'm leaving now I started a new project for myself. . .IMA WRITE A BOOK.